Tuesday, May 29, 2012

When He has smitten, He is willing to bind.

I am reading through the book of Hosea and found this treasure earlier today:

Hosea 6:1

King James Version
''Come, and let us return unto the Lord: for he hath torn, and he will heal us; he hath smitten, and he will bind us up.''
(emphasis mine.)

Hosea 6:1

English Standard Version

“Come, let us return to the Lord;
for he has torn us, that he may heal us;
he has struck us down, and he will bind us up."
The expectation they have of his favor: ''He who has torn us to pieces will heal us; he who has injured us will bind us up,'' as a skillful surgeon uses tender hands to bind up a broken bone or a bleeding wound. This is an acknowledgement of both God's power and his mercy on our behalf; he both can and will heal us. Indeed, he has torn so that he may heal. Some commentators think this points especially to the return of the Jews from Babylon. The favor they expect is described in several aspects.
  •  from The New Matthey Henry Commentary

Ponder that, treasure... You and Him together. :)

what seems like trouble.

Life is hard. No matter who you are; the grass is always greener.
I suppose we should water our own more often, shouldn't we?

It's hard when you have to put flowers on a baby's grave. It's hard when your
friends get up and leave from the lunch table as soon as you sit down. It's hard
when your friend moves away and you don't know the next time you will see them.
It's tough to say goodbye. It's tough to go through surgeries, a time of crisis. It's hard
to grow up... to be a kid. To be a new visitor. For a marriage to be ''hopeless''.
When your singleness seems to never go away, that title.
It's extremely tough to feel lonely. To miss someone with an ache.
When your family/friends doesn't believe in our Best Friend.
When you don't want to be in the place you are.

BUT these are light troubles!

''For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.''
~2 COR. 4:17

Don't ya hate it that what you are studying most stabs you in the gut spiritually?
I am ultimately grateful that it does, though. Simply put, if the Word of God didn't slap
me in the face and revive me I would get bored.

Light and momentary troubles.
We all have one or some... Some ''seem'' bigger than others.
They are all putting our puzzle together. For we see only a glimpse.
I ultimately like it better that way. It just seems real lousy sometimes.
I love looking back on my glimpses when I have been brought to my Gilgal already.
Not when I'm still wandering! By His plan, though, His better plan... This is
the way it is. He will walk before you and with you through the fire.

And we will find him here.

Even when it hurts//Even when it's hard//Even when it all just falls apart.

It is still fitting to praise Him.

''Praise the Lord.
How good it is to sing praises to our God,
how pleasant and fitting to praise him!''
~Psalm 147:1
I mean ladies, it is more fitting to praise Him than it is to put on our favorite outfit! :)
He will bring life to these dry bones.
''Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD!'' ~Ezekiel 37:4
I think sometimes in the midst of the desert we have the most pivotal and precious moments with
the LORD. When we thirst Him and He provides. When we pour out our heart before Him like water and He answers.
I will sing joyfully. We all shall. Find HIM in your momentary burdens, beloved. Be with Him even if you don't want to be. We will be home soon. Bless the Lord, O my soul...

No weapon formed against me shall remain//I will rejoice//I will declare//God is my victory//And He is here//
The end of me is not the enemy.

I love this song. Seriously. It is a soul refresher like none other.
{Another great resource is ''The End is the Beginning.'' by my friends, Cloverton!}
Be blessed, treasure. You are more than this. You are amazing.
In Abba,
{More shall come on momentary troubles later... just on another website. :) }

Monday, May 14, 2012

Mission VS. Country

You see, people think that because I love Africa I have a love for missions. I suppose this can be true. The thing is is that they are not my projects. They aren't my missions to get accomplished. They are my friends. They are people I will come ALONGSIDE IN the mission. I don't just have a love for missions… I love the country. The people. I just can't go and be accomplished- I love Uganda like any pastor would feel called to a congregation- not just the preaching itself. Just loving anyone and everyone. I will help them. I will love them and do whatever Christ calls me to. They are real people; not just statistics. They have no food for real; you are NOT starving. They are real… and we'd better act like it. They exist. I have met them. They NEED Jesus. Just like we all do.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

TSFRL: Take Two.

Today I realized something very important out of my entry last night.
About when I said ''Will this happen? Probably not.''

GOD DOES. He knows. He knows exactly what my life is going to look like. He knows what I'm going to wear tomorrow for crying out loud! {and I don't.}

I can ask all I want. I can cast my desires on Him all I want. In fact, He delights in it... that I would bring something so big to me to Him. So, let's not be afraid in the ask.
Let us come before God, humbly seeking His face, with open minds to what HE would say.

We can't lay our lives out for ourselves. It isn't ours to have; It's His. This is something that our culture sometimes highlights, but it is simply not true. Yes, it is ours in the sense of living, but not in the way of planning everything we  will live. Make sense? I can ''make plans,'' and even if I had things definite, how fun would that be??  You see my past I know; the present I am living; and I don't want to live my future in my present.

Our plans can not compare to His will. He knows the best for us even if we kick and scream to get to that place... Then, we get there and we realize we love His will. It's kinda fun to tell you the truth! Even though it IS NOT easy. {analogy from Katie Davis' book Kisses from Katie.}

My future will remain a mystery... and if I dare say, I am looking forward to attending it.
Join me.

In Him,

Monday, May 7, 2012

The Swiss Family Robinson Life.

I have always been significantly attracted to Swiss Family Robinson.
The thought of living in a treehouse... living off the land... depending on God for EVERY need...
has always drawn me in, but at the time I just thought I liked the tv series.

The fact that I thought Ernest in this series was extremely handsome might have also had something to do with it :)

Also, a series I started reading in Mississippi {from the Collierville Public Library.} had a guy with a passion for that ''Swiss Family Robinson life.''

While we were living in Mississppi we found this series at our library at the time, Collierville Public Library, {BEST LIBRARY E.V.E.R.} and rented them one set at a time. So, I would make a ritual of watching it on evenings that we didn't have other things to tend to. I sat in our big victorian home and didn't even know that this good feeling while watching this would lead to something more.  {Mind you, this is a tool He used. I don't know when the idea first came about, only He does.}
You see, nothing is coincidence. I wasn't attracted to this for some reason...  and if that reason was
just for one trip to Africa... that makes me anxious and uneasy, but so be it. If it was because I was going to end up living a Swiss Family Robinson life, so be it. I can't see the big picture of that ''something more.''

That's the thing-- I don't know. What do I want: To keep going to Uganda until I turn 18. Write books in the meantime. Meet Katie Davis. Meet Beth Moore and her daughter, Melissa. Meet... {it could go on and on!!} Then, live in Uganda for a year or less at New Hope. Go to college at my dream college. Fall madly in love with a Christ-like man that will take me to Uganda or maybe even move me there permanently; That will adopt kids from Africa with me. Whether in the States of in Africa: live a missionary life. Live in a cozy home with goats, horses, and golf carts. Speaking at Revolve along the way. 

Will this happen? Probably not. You see, when I lived in Mississppi all I could think about was Iowa, Iowa, Iowa. Then, we moved to another part of Iowa and I was miserable. Then, against my dream we moved to Kansas. I can't IMAGINE not having this. This beautiful Kansas filled with awesome people; Awesome people I didn't think I would become friends with, but did anyway. Also, when I first moved to Kansas all I could think about was Kenya, Kenya, Kenya. Then, He took me to Uganda. :)

So, for those of you that wonder what I will do: I don't know. I can't make plans... I just have to be where He has called me. Whether I like it at first or not. His plans for me will be accomplished-- it just might take closer to 70 years to fulfill like in Jeremiah. I will live this life. This crazy, insane, overwhelming, his Presence-filled, revelation-filled, joyous, awesome life. Emilee's... not someone else's.

I suppose, I will just keep leaving Eden, but running home just the same. Writing what I write all along the way. {See what I did there?? :)}

Goodnight ladies and gents.
In Abba,
Emilee Kaye

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

four months later.

Here I am, again. We will continue to unfold the glorious journey of the faith-filled, dependant on God, passionate, compassionate, Nehemiah. I encourage you to read Nehemiah 2:1-10 before we take it apart to see how it works together as it will not all be in one column today.

Nehemiah 2

Artaxerxes Sends Nehemiah to Jerusalem
1 In the month of Nisan in the twentieth year of King Artaxerxes, when wine was brought for him, I took the wine and gave it to the king. I had not been sad in his presence before;
  • Nehemiah's passion never ceased even though the time wasn't right in Kislav.
''Nehemiah had prayed for the relief of his compatriots and then set himself to plan what he could do toward it. Nearly four months passed, however, from Kislev to Nisan-- November to March-- before Nehemiah made his request to the king for leave to go to Jerusalem, either because the winter was not a proper time for such a journey or because it was that long before his time of waiting had passed, and he could come into the king's presence without being called for. Now that he attended the king's table, he hoped to have his ear.'' from The New Matthew Henry Commentary

2 so the king asked me, “Why does your face look so sad when you are not ill? This can be nothing but sadness of heart.”

''The cause Nehemiah gave the king to inquire into his cares and griefs; he appeared sad in his presence. He took the wine and gave it to the king when he called for it, expecting him then to look him in the face. He was not usually sad in the king's presence, but conformed to the rules of the court-- as courtiers must-- which would allow no sorrowful expression. Good people should, by their cheerfulness, do what they can to try to convince the world of the pleasantness of the ways of religion and to take away the shame attatched to them as people who are said to be always going about with long faces, but there is a time and a place for everything. Nehemiah now saw cause both to be sad and to appear so. The miseries of Jerusalem gave him cause to be sad, and his display of grief would cause the king to ask why he was sad. '' ~from The New Matthew Henry Commentary {boldness, mine}

Sadness of heart... the eyes are a window. Nehemiah knew in his being that Jerusalem was in his heritage so, therefore, he was disheartened. He remained faithful and true to his heritage.

I was very much afraid, 3 but I said {emphasis, mine.} to the king, “May the king live forever! Why should my face not look sad when the city where my fathers are buried lies in ruins, and its gates have been destroyed by fire?”
  • Nehemiah was ''very much afraid, but he said...''
I believe the Christian culture {we have one and I'm not to sure I like it.} is too comfortable. We stick to everything in Scripture that there is for comfort, and leave the challenge Scriptures just for Pastors. Why? {Not all of us, but alot of us.} You know what we are called to do: We are called to live quiet lives attending to our business, but we are ALSO called to the ends of the earth. Rather your ends of the earth is across the street or across the globe.  It is scary, but ''We don't need easy. We need possible.'' and everything is possible in Jesus Christ... Also, we don't like things to take long. Did you know that in Jeremiah 29:11 the ''plans that I have for you'' {don't get me wrong I believe what it says. I just believe it is out of it's context in the way we present it.} said that it would take 70 years to fulfill? We don't like that, so we don't discuss it very much. Patience is a fruit of the Spirit! We don't use it well at all...

       It took alot of courage for Nehemiah to even come to the king, especially because it is against culture to seem disheartened in the king's presence.
  • We are not called to be afraid, but we are called to speak. And that's just what our friend, Mr. Nehemiah did.
4 The king said to me, “What is it you want?”

Exactly like Jesus' question in Matthew 20.

Then I prayed to the God of heaven, {emphasis, mine} 5 and I answered the king, “If it pleases the king and if your servant has found favor in his sight, let him send me to the city in Judah where my fathers are buried so that I can rebuild it.”

''Nehemiah immediately prayed to the God of heaven that he would give him wisdom to ask properly and that he would incline the king's heart to the God, who understands the language of the heart: Lord give me a mouth and wisdom (Luke 21:15); Lord, give me mercy in the sight of this man (1:11).

Silent prayers. Now, speaking prayer is powerful, and I mean pow-er-ful, but {let's face it. I don't care what ''kind'' it is. I just love to be in communication with Him!} there is an intimacy that you experience with Christ when letting Him understand the prayers of your heart. No one else know, but Him and you. I love when you sing something in worship service that brings a memory of you praying during that line months ago, but that song has it written in between the lines just between you and God. It can happen in an instant like it did in Nehemiah's case or for hours... He know our coming in and our going out... He hems us in behind and before... He knows our every thought... He holds our every moment... and He still likes us-- even loves us.

6 Then the king, with the queen sitting beside him, asked me, “How long will your journey take, and when will you get back?” It pleased the king to send me; so I set a time.

''The king's great favor to Nehemiah in asking him when he would return. He showed that he was reluctant to lose him. yet he would spare him for a while and would let him have inserted into his commission the words he wanted. Here was an immediate answer to prayer.
 In the account he gives of the success of his petition, notice:
  •  The presence of the queen, who sat beside the king, which apparently was unusual in the Persian court.
  • The power and grace of God. Nehemiah won the point according to the good hand of his God upon him.'' from The New Matthew Henry Commentary
7 I also said to him, “If it pleases the king, may I have letters to the governors of Trans-Euphrates, so that they will provide me safe-conduct until I arrive in Judah? 8 And may I have a letter to Asaph, keeper of the king’s forest, so he will give me timber to make beams for the gates of the citadel by the temple and for the city wall and for the residence I will occupy?” And because the gracious hand of my God was upon me, the king granted my requests. {emphasis, mine} 9 So I went to the governors of Trans-Euphrates and gave them the king’s letters. The king had also sent army officers and cavalry with me.
10 When Sanballat the Horonite and Tobiah the Ammonite official heard about this, they were very much disturbed that someone had come to promote the welfare of the Israelites.

This would be like asking our president for permission to get a passport and other supplies for a journey-- although under somepletely different customs.

NOW, treasures, you are called to speak. This is it. Maybe not for a living; maybe not more than a sentence, but YOU ARE CALLED to be witnesses among the nations. To pursue Him whether you are busy or still. Go in peace, be blessed, and pray to our God in heaven.

In Christ,

Nehemiah's Prayer.

Ahh... The thing is is that I feel so inadequate to blog about this. It is so important in Jersusalem's history I don't want to mess it up! BUT the most important thing is: The Lord won't take it off my mind. So, I am doing it (1) because He's telling me to and (2) because I can only truly process things if I write the facts and my feelings down.

ANYWAY! Here we come, Lord. Open our minds. Use us. Mold us. Help us have a blast in Your presence.

Nehemiah 1 {Nehemiah’s Prayer}

1 The words of Nehemiah son of Hacaliah:
In the month of Kislev in the twentieth year, while I was in the citadel of Susa, 2 Hanani, one of my brothers, came from Judah with some other men, and I questioned them about the Jewish remnant that survived the exile, and also about Jerusalem.
3 They said to me, “Those who survived the exile and are back in the province are in great trouble and disgrace. The wall of Jerusalem is broken down, and its gates have been burned with fire.”
4 When I heard these things, I sat down and wept. For some days I mourned and fasted and prayed before the God of heaven. 5 Then I said:
“O LORD, God of heaven, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love with those who love him and obey his commands, 6 let your ear be attentive and your eyes open to hear the prayer your servant is praying before you day and night for your servants, the people of Israel. I confess the sins we Israelites, including myself and my father’s house, have committed against you. 7 We have acted very wickedly toward you. We have not obeyed the commands, decrees and laws you gave your servant Moses.
8 “Remember the instruction you gave your servant Moses, saying, ‘If you are unfaithful, I will scatter you among the nations, 9 but if you return to me and obey my commands, then even if your exiled people are at the farthest horizon, I will gather them from there and bring them to the place I have chosen as a dwelling for my Name.’
10 “They are your servants and your people, whom you redeemed by your great strength and your mighty hand. 11 O Lord, let your ear be attentive to the prayer of this your servant and to the prayer of your servants who delight in revering your name. Give your servant success today by granting him favor in the presence of this man.”
I was cupbearer to the king.

Before I give insights of my own here is what my study notes said about the audience of the book Nehemiah:

''Generations of Isrealites after the exiles had returned from Babylon read the book of Nehemiah. Ezra clearly wanted his readers to undersatnd what had happened in Jerusalem as the exiles returned, as well as the issues they faced and overcame in order to reestablish their covenant relayionship with God. The national identity of God's people was at stake: the community of God had to be rebuilt upon the foundation of God's covenants with his people established many years earlier.''

Background: The Babylonians had destroyed Jerusalem. The temple was gone, the city walls, and the city gate. Some stayed {from my study} while some traveled to Babylon as captives.
The temple was then restored in 516 B.C..........

''That the holy city was exposed and in ruins. The wall of Jerusalem was still broken down, and the gates were in ruins, as the Babylonians had left them. This made the condition of the inhabitants both despicable under the lasting marks of poverty and slavery, and also very dangerous, for their enemies could launch and attack on them whenever they pleased. The temple was built, the government settled, and the work of reformation had made some headway, but there was one good work still undone; this was still lacking.'' ~from The New Matthew Henry Commentary

Jerusalem, the holy city:

Nehemiah wasn't the first person to desire for the holy city in ruins, but it was a desire nonetheless.
  •  The rebuilding of the temple started with a passion- compassion, even -it started with man and God communicating.
This is going to be overwhelmingly long, I apologize.

''We may notice this prayer: {Numbered differently in the commentary itself.}
  1.  His humble and reverent address to God. It teaches us to draw near to God:
  2. With holy reverence of his majesty and glory, remembering that he is the God of heaven, infinately above is and infinitely greater than all the principalities and powers of both the upper and the lower worlds, and angels and kings.
  3. With a holy confidence in his grace and truth, for he keepeth covenant and mercy for those that love him , not only the mercy that is promised, but even more than he promsed.
  4. His general request for the hearing and acceptance of all the prayers and confessions he now made to God ''Let thy ear be attentive to the prayer, which I pray before thee.''
  5. His penitent confession of sin. Not only Israel has sinned- but also I and my father's house have sinned.
  6. The pleas he urged for mercy for his people Israel:
  7. He pleaded what God had formerly said to them. He had truly said that if they broke covenant with him, he would scatter them among the nations, and that threat had been fulfilled in their exile. Never had a people been so widely dispersed as Israel was at that time, even though at first they had been so closely united. He had also said that if they turned to him,  as now they began to do, having renounced idolatry and kept to the temple worship, he would gather them again. He quotes this from Dt 30:1-5 and asks God to remember it- although the eternal Mind needs no reminding- as what he guided his desires by and based his faith and hope on, when he prayed this prayer. If God did not remember his promises more than we remember his precepts, we would be ruined. Our best pleas in prayer are therefore those that are taken from the promises of God, the word which he has causes us to hope.
  8. He pleads the relationship in which they stand with God: ''These are your servants and your people, whom you have set apart for yourself and have taken into covenant with you. Will you allow your sworn enemies to trample on and oppress your sworn servants? If you will not appear for your people, whom will you appear for?'' As evidence of their being God's servants, he describes them by saying, ''They desire to fear your name; they not only are called by your name, but really have reverence for your name, They now worship you, and only you, according to your will. They are in awe of all the revelations you are pleased to make of yourself. They have a desire to do this.''
  9. He pleads the great things God has formerly done for them: ''Whom thou hast redeemed by thy great power, in former days. Your power is still the same; will you not therefore still redeem them and complete their redemption? Let not those who have a God of infinite power on their side be overpowered by the enemy.''
  10. His conclusion with a particular petition, that God will prosper him in his undertaking and give him favor with the king: this man, he calls him, for the greatest people are still merely human before God. They must recognize themselves as such, and others must recognize that too. Who art thou that thou shouldst be afraid of a man? Mercy in the sight of this man is what he prays for, meaning not the king's mercy, but mercy from God while he addresses the king. Favor with other people gives us strength and encouragement when we see it as coming from the mercy of God.'' from The New Matthew Henry Commentary
After reading something like that I am always thankful that I have all eternity to be with Jesus, because I simply can't grasp this muchness and glorious character on earth, for such a short time as this.

{v11} I was cupbearer to the king.

''Nehemiah's position at the court of Persia. He was in Shusan the palace, or royal city, of th eking of Persia, where the court was ordinarily kept, and he was the king's cupbearer. After holding this position at court, he would better qualified for the service to his country for which God had intended him, as moses was better qualified to govern because he was brought up in Pharaoh's court, and David because he was brought up in Saul's. Nehemiah would alsohave had a better oppurtunity to serve his country by his influence on the king and those around him. God has his remnant in all places; we read of Obadiah in the house of Ahab, siatns in Caeser's jousehold, and a godly Nehemiah in the citadel of SUsa. Go  can make the courts of monarchs sometimes be nurseries to the friends and patrons of the church's cause, and other times sancturies for them.'' ~from The New Matthew Henry Commentary.

Popcorn paragraph #1,001

I believe the temple being restored and the walls, the Jews protection, being spiritually true as well.
The people had turned from their old ways, they had the presence and forgiveness of God. They just didn't stay. They sinned and had to be renewed- as we all do. They needed to be secure walking the walk and not just talking the talk.  Nehemiah's coming with others started a renewal; now we will go on find out how the king responds, how building the walls will go, and if the renewal will last.

To be continued... {OR ya know... just read Nehemiah 2- and on before you wait on little ol' Emilee to put together another entry. :)}

A Peculiar Treasure, {and ready for bed... :) thanks for bearing w/ me!}