Wednesday, May 22, 2013

i'm human and i love Jesus.

"I'm human and I love Jesus."

Her voice cracked and whispered the words, "That's what I want them to know."

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It all rushes back.

I would tell you I don't know why I haven't written on Peculiar Treasures for awhile, but that simply wouldn't be true. I had writers block. I'm grieving. Among other key reasons, there you have it.

Maybe I feel guilty for bringing him up my Grandpa's passing when grief is simply something that usually happens quietly. I wish that these last few months would have had more blogged word, but I have still been writing.

We all try to act like we have it together.

We walk around like we know what we're talking about. Like words and unwanted silence doesn't matter and that we are broken heart resistant. The lies that we hear, the lies that we tell ourselves, the lies that we, to our core, believe... aren't there.

 “Community arises where the sharing of pain takes place, not as a stifling form of self-complaint, but as a recognition of God's saving promises.” --Henri J. M. Nouwen, The Wounded Healer.


Wednesday, April 17, 2013

resistance & the heart of God.

"Resistance
  

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       In the past two days, Makenna listens to my singing over her for only several moments before letting out more cries. She loves being with me, but she wants down all too quickly in my eyes. Am I crazy or do you see the heart of God in this {these} example{s}? The Lord cleanses us; makes us new, but we yell and scream about it. All the while, He is singing our songs over us, even our siblings in Christ are hearing the melody, telling us to just trust Him & reminding us that He is near. We love being with Him. Unlike our spiritually high days though, we leave all to quickly. While we still love Him & we still communicate--His arms, for some reason, don't seem as wonderful & satisfying as they used to be. Then, come evening, it is His biggest delight that we would want to crawl into His lap and cuddle & get warm. I certainly have not responded in all the ways I should have, but He is molding me & it's a beautiful thing to see. Lord, in the ways I lack & in what I'm recognizing {pride, bitterness, little unceasing prayer}, make me new. You are so holy. We know not what we do. I love You--may I be pleasing in Your eyes & may I give You a big delight--by crawling into Your lap. Your will be done, Jesus. You are so good. Prepare us for the Sabbath and train us as we live in hope of the Eternal Sabbath. Thank-You... it's good to be alive.

Yours Forever,
Emilee..."

My journal entry from Saturday, January 19, 2013.

Saturday, April 6, 2013

march.

March wasn't my grandest month, especially as far as journaling goes, but I love looking back on this short amount of time & seeing what He was working in me.

  • Saturday, March 2, 2013. [Someday]

  • Sunday, March 3, 2013. [Breaking the Silence]

  • Sunday, March 3, 2013. [200 Letters... I Will (Never) Send]

  • Monday, March 4, 2013.  [Three Hardnesses & Oceans]

  • Thursday, March 7, 2013. [Changes; Good & Bad]

  • Saturday, March 9, 2013. [Long Stories Short]

  • Sunday, March 10, 2013. [Giving While Empty]

  • Tuesday, March 12, 2013. [Luke & Our Disney List]

  • Saturday, March 16, 2013. [Confusing, Ironic, and Amazing]
...and that post brings us to the end of that journal.

The timeline? From December 27, 2012-March 16, 2013.

 
We turned the last page of this Moleskine, to open the next in line--thanks to my birthday shopping trip! :)

 
 
  • Wednesday, March 20, 2013. [We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve]
 
Enjoy this beautiful weather, y'all! May your weekend be filled with much laughter, coffee, and wonderful companionship. :)
 
Until next time,
Emilee
 
 

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

#savesaeed

In English I am writing a story about Pastor Saeed. Watch these videos below to learn more about him, his continuing daily persecutions, his perspective, and how you can help!







Join me in praying for Saeed & being challenged by his inspiring, real message.

I got treasure up in heaven; I got dirt all over me,
Emilee

Monday, March 11, 2013

february.

Better late than never, right?
Here is the list of my journal entries from last month. It flew, like always, but sharpening & lovely nevertheless.

  • Friday, February 1, 2013. [You Don't Even Want To Know]

  • Saturday, February 2, 2013. [Reminders For Next Time]

  • Sunday, February 3, 2013. [The Power Of A Hug, The Gift Of Family, and The Continuing]

  • Tuesday, February 5, 2013. [A Gorgeous Day]

  • Wednesday, February 6, 2013. [Strange And Beautiful]

  • Thursday, February 7, 2012. [COMING ATTRACTIONS]

  • Friday, February 8, 2013. [Ringing In The New Age]

  • Saturday, February 9, 2013. [Substituting For Years Of Friendship]

  • Sunday, February 10, 2013. [UNCLEAN]

  • Monday, February 11, 2013. [Substituting Continued: A Vulnerable Agony]

  • Tuesday, February 12, 2013. [Vulnerable Agony; His Will Be Done]

  • Thursday, February 14, 2013. [Life Goes On...]

  • Saturday, February 16, 2013. [Check-In]

  • Sunday, February 17, 2013. [Heart Pouring Of An Anxious, Beat Up Spirit]

  • Monday, February 18, 2013. [First Few Vulnerable Lines]

  • Tuesday, February 19, 2013. [Hey Girl, History Repeats Itself]

  • Wednesday, February 20, 2013. [List Of Reminders For The Road]

Hope your March has been going well, friends. Teach us to number our days, Jesus.
We pour our hearts out like water before You...

In Abba,
Emilee